Reconciliation.

I am terrified of going down that path again and ending up more damaged than last time.

I've been living in a fantasy this week.

I have been remembering the good in it.

It wasn't until I contacted him again, that I began to remember the negative aspects of the past year.
It always felt like a struggle for affection.
Is this an issue of my own, or is this really not the right thing for me?

Maybe I need more time.

Maybe I need to be rid of it all together.

After all of this, what is left to say?

I'm afraid.