The past month has been insane.
I had not been feeling well pesonally for quite some time.
A recent nervous breakdown had me re-evaluating my life's routine.
I have sought out some help, and after 3 weeks, I am feeing much better.
I am learning to manage my anxiety, fear, and depression in a healthy manner.
My mind has felt like a broken record playing upon on a continuous scratch.
Today the record played through sweetly.
I am working through what I have feared and repressed the most: growing up in an alcoholic home.
On Saturday I saw Everyday Sunshine; The Story Of Fishbone.
Any music fan must see this documentary on the legendary ska/funk/punk/metal band Fishbone.
In the movie there is a line about how to find peace and create our art, we must walk trough our pain and come out on the other side.
I understood. This "walk" has been my goal lately.
Confront. Grieve. Release. Live.
I am doing it. I feel great.
I wanted to remind myself about what a great weekend it was.
There were so many moments of inspiration.
Many of these moments were simple yet so important to me.
I took my brothers out to Tucson Meet Yourself. We had a really great time together.
I spent time with my grandmother. I adore her.
I spent time with my best pals at Congress. Friendship makes the world a better place.
I bought some new clothes. A girl has to feel good about herself right?
I did my hair up in a pomp. Confidence.
I did not have a drink. Control.
I watched Angelo Moore rip up Rialto Theatre. Inspiration.
All of these things seem so small and typical, but they meant everything to me. I am fortunate to have come this far despite the obstacles my family has faced. Living in the simpleness of life feels really good.
Words of advice:
Allow yourself to live in the moment.
Fear, worry, and depression never solved any problem.
You deserve to feel happiness and inspiration.
Be only an observer of your past; no longer participate in the pain.
Keep your head to the sunlight. There is always a positive.
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